Ex...

My ex and I broke up three summers ago around July 4th. We were still in high school at the time and we ended up kind of getting back together until it became very toxic. Physical and verbal abuse from him except for one time I kicked him in trying to get him to let go of my arm because it was leaving marks. Needless to say it was a horrid break up or at least on my end. And I've noticed that since that July every July I get very moody and sick. Like nausea and vomiting the way I was when we first broke up. I feel more anxious too. I'm not really sure why, though since I now have a very loving and caring boyfriend of a year and a half. Last year it wasn't this bad except at the beginning of the month but it's terrible this year and I can't stop thinking about him. I know with everything in me that I completely moved on and am truly happy with where I am now. I've even had dreams about him for the past few nights but nothing sexual, just like a casual meet up say hi and then leave. The dreams even make me sick. He moved states but one of my friends ran into him recently at a store near where I live so I know he's back and maybe that's it? I haven't said a word to him since we completely ended the relationship and I don't know why this is happening now. In a way I want to end up casually running into him with my current boyfriend and have him see how much happier I am now, but it just feels weird to want that. I don't really know what's going on in my head. Can someone give me some insight? (I am extremely happy with my current boyfriend and we don't actually fight so I don't believe it has anything to do with him and our relationship.)