Is anyone else not really feeling it?

UPDATE!

Just wanted to say phew! That was a rough ride for a minute there! 😅 11 weeks tomorrow, and finally feeling more level and actually excited for the new little one! Worst thing going on for me is waking up to find that the husband ate the last of the ice cream the night before! 😂😂😂 Thanks ladies who commented, it really helped ☺️

Baby number 2 is on the way, and can I say I'm a little less than thrilled? I feel like a crap mom just writing this, but I'm having a hard time being happy about this. Everyone that knows so far (and that's a very select few) is over the moon excited for us, and I'm over here like 😒 My husband is so happy and excited, but I guess I was just content with the 3 of us. My little one is 3 now, and I'm just starting to get my body back to myself, and now all I can think is it'll be another 3/4 years until that will happen. I had a natural unmedicated birth with the first one, and I'm not exactly looking forward to going through the whole labor and birth part again. I've been super irritable and just plain mean to my SO, we've been arguing more than usual, and then I spend the rest of the day beating myself up about it. I've tried to explain how I feel, but it's just not getting through to him. We moved to a new town in a new state recently, and I just don't have anyone I can talk to 😞 I don't want to terminate the pregnancy, but I just don't know how to turn this funk I'm in around.