TTC

Early 20's:

- I have to grow my career and build a savings account, get my 401k started

- I want to enjoy my youth, have fun with my friends, travel, go out

- Friend gets pregnant: "she must have missed a day of her birth control, why on earth would she want a child now, that sucks"

- Gets an IUD, because uh, there is no way I want kids anytime soon, give me the extra duty one

- Sees a "bumbdate" on social media: goes blind for ~10 minutes because eyes roll so hard

- Avoids any place that may have small children, because the screaming, and the moms who can only focus on the kids and not what they are actually there for

- Can't believe how many girls "let themselves go" once they have a kid

First positive pregnancy test, late 20's:

- buys a minivan

- "Can't believe those friends (who I went out with last weekend btw) are so immature, they really should be considering having a family

- Makes a Pinterest board to include 1st birthday party themes, because gotta have the perfect smashcake

- "I have so much fun without alcohol anyways"

- Buys outlet covers, safety first

- Bloated? Don't care, I'm growing a miracle and I love my body's strength

- Waves at the babies in the pew in front of me because they are so cute and will be so fun to have my own

After miscarriage :

- OMG I actually want 12 kids and now I don't have time

- Why aren't these young girls starting a family?!?!?!

- Eating all the pineapple and vitamins

- (Hides my drawer of conception "tools/monitors from my husband)

- Surely each "bumpdate" eye roll was killing at least 100 healthy eggs and now I have no more

- Husband is forbidden from hot tub; must perform on demand specifically during fertile window, and I don't care what the conditions are

- Smiling babies in the pew in front of me make me cry because they are just so lucky to be alive (I wonder what conception technique her mom used?!)

Anyone else?! Hope you got a little cheer from my thoughts as everyday, for me at least, is a roller coaster. But for now, I'm trying to laugh at the situation, and will count my blessings with a margarita in the middle of the day- because if I was pregnant I wouldn't be able to do that- but only 1, because you know, healthy eggs 😜