Impossible Baby

How do you handle it? I've waited my whole life to be a mom and I've never felt worse. My 7 month old hasn't slept more than 6 hours a night since he was 2 months old. Usually it's two hour chunks, sometimes with hours in between. He's a cranky monster all day because he's exhausted. I spend hours putting him down for a nap so he can sleep for 20 minutes and wake up still exhausted. I switched him to formula because everyone said he'd be a happier, fuller, sleepier baby and he's not. He just refuses my boobs and demands a bottle every hour instead of nursing which is way harder and more expensive and makes me feel like shit. He hates his walker and his exersaucer and all of his toys all he wants is cords and now that they're all hidden up high he just tries to climb everything to get them. So basically he's being held 24/7.

I don't know what to do I dread being alone with him. All day while my husband is at work I cry and pester him to come home. Even when he's home all we do is take turns trying to put baby to sleep and then getting frustrated and passing him back to the other person.

We never enjoy his cute moods because we're so exhausted from his bad moods. I'm embarrassed to see friends and family or even to go out to the store because he's so bad so I just stay home and let him scream at me and get more and more worked up about how hard it's going to be trying to put him to sleep in 20 minutes.

Is this just how parenthood is? Am I just going to feel this hopeless and miserable forever? We're just starting a new month long wonder weeks leap. Which is great because he was a sleepless crying mess for the past 3 weeks of "sun".