Need help about this boy

I don't really know if I like this boy or not. So I'm kinda at the awkward phase where you're the first one to get your period in the WHOLE GRADE and where you get horny like every hour and I'm on the bigger side I'm 5'3 and 195 pounds even though I don't look my weight I don't think he could like me and I just don't know if I like him I get kinda horny around him and just feel so...............................like I'm relaxing in the country with no noise except wind and a cute horse...yet I'm nervous. I know it sounds weird and it's hard to explain so please help!