R.I.P BLUE

So ive wanted a baby now that both my sons are grown haven't had 1 yet so I decide to go get a dog felt like he was my baby I've been wanting. Yesterday I went in long enough to fix my son phone to the WiFi left the puppy tied top the porch on his leash an collar only to come out to find my dog hanging off the porch dead i was so devastated I grab him tried giving him mouth to mouth an pumping his chest but it was too late I feel like I have lost a child i woke up crying still some people may look at it as if he was just a dog no he was family an my baby an i will miss him so much😭😭😭