High risk, miserable and venting...

I'm currently 16 weeks along and at 10 weeks I had a haemorrhage that put me in hospital..... the dr said "don't get your hopes up" as she believes the baby won't make it 😔

Since then I've been struggling to connect with my baby out of fear I'll lose it.

With my last pregnancy I had so much more prepared at this stage and this time I can't bring myself to buy anything....

luckily I've had 4 perfectly healthy pregnancies and babies in the past and this is my first complicated pregnancy and I should be grateful for what I have, but it doesn't make the idea of losing one any easier....

I'm having an ultrasound next week to hopefully see a beating heart, fingers crossed 🤞🏻