Addiction Nightmare 💔

My husband is a heroin addict before heroin it was Oxycodone... long story short he decided to go to rehab i convinced him to go,( kind of ) while he was high i told him not to worry about the bills the rent that I got it, I don't have a job so I told him I would find a job and a babysitrer i have a 10 year old and a 4month old, he agreed to go the next day for 30 days yay!... im so happy that he's in rehab its what I wanted but im afraid for so many reasons. I feel like i obligated him to go, he didn't want to. my head is going to explode, i miss him , I love him, im mad at him, im disappointed ... of course im not gonna tell him that beside showing my support 100%. i want to go to therapy i need it! But I dont have time i need to find a job ASAP. This is so hard 😢 . Will run out of Similac by the end of tomorrow. WIC checks will not be available till the 15th of this month. My grandma has helped me enough. I cant find a reliable babysitter. I dont know what eles to do. I know i made the right choice by telling my husband not to worry about us, because That is how I convinced him to go to rehab... 💔 I guess what I just need here are prayers at this moment , strength, hope... To get through this nighmare.