I hate my body....

Please no judgment or hate as I'm already in tears, I just really need to get this out and this is the only safe place I have where I can share what I'm feeling.

I know I created a beautiful and amazing little human but I literally look in the mirror from the neck down every day and I hate my body so much. I can't stand to look at myself. I feel okay with my face but everything else I hate with a passion. I try to make myself say positive things but I never ever believe it no matter how hard I try

I just see my boobs, stomach, arms, butt, back and stare in such disgust it hurts. I hate myself and what I look like now. My husband always says I look good but him telling me that makes me even more insecure because I KNOW I don't look good physically.

I'm used to being so tiny at my pre baby weight of 105-110lbs at 4'11" and I'm now 125lbs, sagging tits, stretch marked from boobs to inner thighs. I also have huge varicose veins I developed when I was pregnant with my son that run down my legs and pop out (which my father pointed out to me a few days ago that he noticed them when we were camping).... I hate everything about myself and I know I shouldn't. I want to express to my husband just how bad my body issues are but he's heard me complain so many times that "I'm too fat" or "I want a boob job" that I feel like he's not going to listen or be there to comfort me when I need it so I'll feel even more alone. Anyway I know this is long but thank you for whoever did take the time to read this, you've helped me vent in this small way.