How to get over PPD😢😢

Idk how to deal with this. I can't get through even thinking about feeling this way without crying and once I start I cant stop. I dont want to tell me dr this and just start bawling in his office and have to tell him that I'm feeling the way I do.....is there something I can do to naturally remedy ppd?? Even if I tell my dr, what will happen, will I be put on medication? Would my insurance (medicaid) even cover that, or follow up visits for that matter? I feel like I'm always gunna be stuck where I am right now and I'm completely hopeless😞