I can't. I just can't.

So one of my closest friend came to town today, and I took some time to hang out with him.

We both just got out of serious relationships. It was all nice and stuff, until he turned the tv off and tried to have sex with me.

I mean, yes, I can have sex with no strings attached, but just kissing him feels sooooo weird. I guess it's because we're too close?

And then I thought well maybe I can enjoy getting some, because hey, I haven't gotten any in a while. So I kissed him back?

And my head was going haywire to the point that we both undressed, and I was just yelling oh my god no stop.

I can't, I just can't. He's like a brother to me.

And then it's super weird, I don't know how to act or even talk to him after I turned him down.

And also I'm so very confused why I would just go like ok, yes, no, ok, no the whole time.

Can anyone help me?

I mean I didn't mislead him I swear.