Late night depressed rant

I love him with all my heart but I don't think I'll ever forgive him for ruining the specialness of sex. I know he never meant to, but he did. He will constantly force me to sext other men. Not like "hey baby could you" it like "you aren't?! Why not?! I want you to now!!" And if I tell him I'm crying or something he tells me to get over it. I know this isn't good but honestly it's the best relationship I've had sadly. The worst part is he won't even date me... it doesn't even seem like he wants to be seen with me..