Today It Makes 2 Years....T.A.H

Today it makes 2 years, and it feels

just as fresh....today it makes 2 years since you entered heavenly rest. I don't know why I thought this year would be easier, it feels HARDER to me, because I struggle to remember the warmth on your small cheeks. I grasp swiftly to the fleeting images of holding you in my mind, as there are no new memories of you to replace them after all this time. I'm so angry at God, yet so filled with His peace. So conflicted with joy that you're not here to experience this hate filled world, yet you're not here with me...man the ache is unbearable, unspeakable to those who don't know, but it makes the heart a little wiser, as I continue to grow. I'll always miss you my love, and a little extra on this day, and I'll always keep your short life guarded in my heart as my memory starts to stray. To all the women who have faced indescribable, and still struggle with the unspeakable...let your heart cry, let your soul weep, let the empty heaviness of your arms roll. We can't bury our pain as we did our children, or our pain will soon bury us. Do not shut yourself off as tempting as it is. Let it out, let it free, and HEAL, not hide. I pray that you let love in your heart, and allow God to be your guide, for He is greater than you know, you are stronger than you realize, and your journey is just beginning 💙❤💙❤💙❤