For starters, and so you have a little bit of a background,

I'm sixteen.

I'm a Junior in Highschool, and i'm also attending a school for cosmetology.

I work part-time at pizzahut.

I'm on the pill (Reclipsen, but i recently switched from 2 others.)

I also had the nexplanon implant, but it made me gain a good bit of weight despite what I was told.

Last Summer, I was about 180lbs.

This Summer, i'm about 220lbs.

My diet hasn't changed the slightest bit.

I started a gym membership up at the beginning of summer, but I don't really go. Everytime It's a forced thing and I even tried a personal trainer. I haven't lost weight despite going unwillingly 3-4 times a week, paying $120 a month for a trainer that killed me once a week.

I'm a picky eater, so Its hard to find things I can eat and actually het full off of that aren't calorie packed or super fattening.

Last summer I played tennis, but it didn't really do anything other than tone me up. I have a bad knee because I nearly tore my meniscus cartiledge in colorguard my freshman year. I was also born with a condition where my vertebrates slipped forward, and so I have a bad back.

Along with this, Lupus and Fibromyalgia slow me down some too.

I have a pretty busy life, and I can't find much motivation to lose this weight.

Im embarrassed of my body, and I feel i cant love myself like this.

Whats there to do without being miserable

The bottom b&w; was last summer, and its a big difference to me..😓