its true. he won't stick around

long...ranting and venting

as I sit here crying I can't figure out if I'm crying because I'm sad or because of how pissed I am.

22 weeks with our rainbow baby and we always fight about stupid stuff sometimes I don't know what were even arguing over. I have forgave him for cheating and he can't get over things that happened before I even met him 3 years ago.

I supported him when he had nothing and yes he has helped me but not as much as he has broke me down and made me believe I am ugly and no one will want me because this is my 3rd baby. I haven't made big deals of him going out with his friends sometimes coming home at 4 7 8 am.

he claims I'm like a old lady in a 27 year olds body. because I don't like wasting money at casinos or because at 10 or 11 I am exhausted after working 9 hours and being with my kids. I always pay and I'm so fucking tired of it. how am I always the bad fucking guy.

so I am 27 with 2 kids 1 on the way who r all my world. i have provided for my other 2 as I will this 1. after I have her I'm signing up for school and I will go to work during the day and school at night to be a nicu nurse. fuck him fuck his family