im cursed

i swear you guys, i feel like im the girl guy's meet before they meet their "other half." i am so tired of it. its a constant cycle. guy meets me, falls HARD, after like a month they don't feel it anymore, and then a few months later finds the love of their life. i don't get it? im not clingy, crazy, im pretty, im kinda shy and very sweet, im not being cocky but i really do posses great qualities. i just don't understand and it's really ruining my self esteem. 😞