Hated making my decision!!!

Looking to vent. Decided to continue my BC pills because as much as I want another baby there is something going on with my husband and it's not fare to bring a new baby into drama. He says he's drinking because then he can't feel physical pain he's in from working all the time. Well that's a stupid excuse to drink as much as he has been. He drinks a case of beer in a day and then acts stupid and says he s fine and that the reason he acts the way he does isn't because of the beer its because of me. He still wants to have another baby but I decided against it. I hate having to put what I want on hold but it's what's best right now.