Sometimes just sometimes

Yes this is a confession.. I feel like cheating my mans not giving me Enough of things I want. I don't cuz I want to be with him I want to have a successful relationship with him. Iam a strong partner and I do care about him but I feel like he doesn't care about what I want. Please glow I love you for being there for me and instead of being a tramp I'm here just confessing my thoughts instead of putting them to action . Please god help me be a stronger women please help me get the love I deserve from this man . Cuz if not I swear I'm becoming a sugar baby!! And I'll travel and get a lot of attention and luxury. And don't think I say this with pride but with actually tears running down my cheeks cuz it's not really what I want. but I know that could be my reality if I make it so I know I'm young and beautiful and smart I don't want this man to take that away from me. But I don't want to leave and have another women teach him what I was trying to teach him the whole time cuz I know that's a reality to. Please god help me make better decisions and help me love my self so I can stop crying over his nonsense. P.s also god please don't ever let my man go through my glow app!! Amen.