Squirting help

Okay so when i was younger and exploring myslelf i think i would almost squirt but not realize what i was doing and thought i was gonna pee so when i would get the sensation when i would play with myself i would stop...my question now is why cant i seem to get the sensation anymore?? Did i do somethig subconsciously because i have tried and tried and nothing and i really want to do it for some reason. Help please