Why do I feel so guilty ...?

Hey ladies,

I'm struggling with mixed emotions recently.

I am 35 weeks pregnant, I've worked 50 hour weeks up until two weeks ago and have been fortunate enough to be in a position where I can now spend time to myself, relaxing and resting without having to worry about working. Even though I am exhausted once again at this point in my pregnancy I can't help but feel so incredibly guilty for some reason?? I feel so much better having been able to relax and take it easy for these past few weeks of pregnancy I have left but fight with the feelings of anxiety like I should be doing more with my time. pregnancy has made me more high strung than I've ever been in my life! People keep telling me "relax while you can!" Well I can't!😩

My OCD is in super drive, I clean until my hearts content and then some more. Does anyone else have this problem?! My man keeps telling me to enjoy my down time while I can and don't have anything close to this nice relaxing time again for a long time but I can't help but feel like I'm so useless for some reason. I've been working since I was 15 years old and am now 22 so I believe that might have something to do with the way I'm feeling. Maybe I just need to cut myself a break and remember that growing life is tiring business 😶