Wanting to give up a lot lately.........

👋🏽Hi, I'm new here. I'm 23, first time mom and married......….It seems as if my life has been doomed since the day I was born. As much as I try to live life happily my anger show out and the consequences are very hurtful. Although i know I may cause this upon myself, it seems as if I hold my past in even though I feel that I don't. Everyone tells me I need to stop being so angry, but how? I've seen a shrink but I didn't even trust her with everything and I lied to her during sessions. I know I need to just start all over and get over my past and all I when done, but again how?