depressed and pregnant

I'm 10 weeks 1 day and I'm extremely depressed. The man I love doesn't love me and I hate myself for it. I'm alone and he's the father and now I wish he wasn't because I'm stuck seeing him for the rest of my God forsaken life. I want to crawl in a hole. I want to run away and hide. I made a mistake planning a baby with him. I'm so stupid and I hate myself for it. It literally Hurts my heart everytime I'm around him. I just want to jump out of the car when it stops and run away from him. Help I'm starting to hate him because he rather be with anyone but me.