Mixed emotions on my first time

A while ago I posted a whole thing about thinking about losing my virginity to this asshole I met on POF. 

So I kicked him to the curb, I owe you all a huge thanks.

However, Thursday night I did in fact lose my virginity. I'm having some real mixed emotions with it.

Okay so I did meet his guy on POF, we talked via texting for a couple of days. Really hit it off! I'm talking major sparks to the point where I gave him my number and we started to call each other. We agreed to meet to go on a date, moon watching because it was indeed full. 

I was super nervous because other than that, I've been on a grand total of two dates. Now three. It took him a while to get me to agree to meet, he completely made me feel comfortable meeting him. 

It was a impressive date, completely enjoyed it. We got along so well and he was a complete gentleman. This was a tester date, to see if we got along; as he claimed. He figured out early on in our phone conversations that I was indeed a virgin. He didn't push me, he said this was just to see if we are compatible.

We ended up in his car making out, never done that before. Then ended up in the back seat and before I knew it, the deed was done. 

 

Up until then we had been texting regularly, now when I got home and texted I was there it was the last response I got. He made this spur of the moment date because he's spontaneous. He also had to go out of town, his not mine, for business but would text. I mean he was going to Florida and with the hurricane I can understand the no communication. But that seems very convenient, but then again i asked for a Saturday meet up and that was his explanation.

Truth be told I didn't expect to have sex with him, but I was okay with a one night if that's how it ended up being. 

But he promised that he wasn't 'that guy' and said he was intensely interested in me. I'm very much into him and I'm feeling rejected. Was I played? Is he really that guy and prayed upon me and my ignorance? I don't want to seem like a needy girl begging for attention and sending him a million texts to acknowledge me. But I'm very confused. I'm okay if I never see him again, one night of passion is okay because it felt perfect and kind of what I wanted for my first time. But he asked when the next time I was free, said we would make plans to hang out, he wanted to see me again. 

I just want to know if he is or isn't rejecting me. Am I reading too much into this? I know others have said that women sometimes imprint on the man they lose it too, but that's not what I'm feeling. I can't give it a name, but it's been three days since we spoke and my stomach is in nots. As someone who doesn't put herself out there for fear of rejection, I need to know!