I need an opinion!!

So i have been so self-conscious about this for a while and i just need to know what others think. PLEASE BE NICE. DONT JUDGE. I dont really know how to say this so im just going for broke here..... i have hair that grows all over my stomach and back and i am so affaid of rejection that i have turned people away because i dont want them to know and i have avoided having sex with my boyfriend even though i want to because of it. i dont even let him touch my stomach for very long or my lower back becauset im so affraid of what he will think. i do shave it but it is never smooth no matter what. i know i could wax but im a wimp about pain so i cant bring myself to do it. Do you think its a deal breaker for most people or am i freaking out way to much? what are your thoughts.