WHY CANT IT JUST BE ME?!!!!!!!

I'm so fucking pissed, mad, hurt, angry, disappointed. A friend of mine found out she is pregnant about 4 weeks ago and now my older sister, which is 38 ( not saying it old! I'll be 30 in a few months) but they weren't even trying yet and my husband and I have been trying for almost 2 years and NOTHING! Im the crazy baby lady as my friends and coworkers say. (I'm a pre-k teacher. I teach the 3 year olds) I have a 5 year old son. Doc says all is good. I'm so happy for my friend and my sister but I'm the one that wants it more then food, then wine, sex ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in life! I want to give my husband a child!!!! All our family besides my own mother wasn't us to have kids right now and we both do too and I have going to family dinners and have everyone ask me when it will happen.

I hate hearing "It'll happen when it happens" or "keep ur faith" "keep praying"

WHAT DO YOU THINK I HAVE BEEN DOING!!!!???????

I have cried my eyes out for 45 mins and now here I am writing this...... just needed to put into words. Hubby just doesn't understand what I am feeling and I don't expect him to. So wine is for dinner tonight.....

Love all y'all........

Staying #HOUSTONSTRONG If Houston TEXAS can get through that horrible Hurricane, I can't get through this!