failure!!!

I can't help but stalk the community posts on here but my God it's making me emotional.... our ivf referral is due to go through next week...... I'm hoping and praying that we get pregnant naturally before we see a consultant, not because I don't want to do ivf but because I'm scared and feel like a failure. my body and mind has failed and I just don't know why! not knowing is one of the worst feelings. I'm currently 6 days before af and have stomach cramps and just ever so discouraged...... I want to curl up in my bed and cry. cry an cry! I feel sick and really down, I'm putting it all down to anxiety and the fact I may be over thinking things 😭 me and my husband have been trying over 2 years!I'm trying to come to terms with the realisation that we that we need help, but it's so hard to come to terms with it all! love from a crying mess!!!