I need a break.

For two months every week I’ve been overwhelmed and had a panic attack every other day. Right now I’m tired, overwhelmed , crying, while my eyelids burn from rubbing the tears away so much. I transferred to a private school. I have mental issues. I get anxiety attacks really bad. And I struggle when it comes to learning. I literally have to depend on a stupid pill to function! I’m just tired of everything! I have a D’s in 3 of my classes. I stopped taking that pill because I hate the side affects! It makes it where I don’t eat and have a fast heart rate plus it increases my anxiety as well and makes it even worse then when I’m not on it! I’m used to being shoved around because people are to frustrated to teach me! I’m tired of being told I’m not good enough! Or being compared to my brother who’s older and smarter and doesn’t have a learning disability! I wish I was normal sure I’m more artistic than others but the worst thing about being an artist is you put all the pain into your work or else it sucks happiness doesn’t look good enough in art. A sunflower doesn’t cut it they want someone with tears down there face and a smile and eyes that could tell their whole life story through one look. They want a poem of someone striving to leave that god forsaking town. I wish I could just have a break at least before I took pill I did get some. I would space out in class and forget about reality. I wish people knew what to do with people like me. Because I certainly don’t.