I feel crazy.

I have had a lot of trauma in my life, with sexual abuse and rape starting at the age of 8. I've been to therapy for as long as I can remember to deal with my ptsd, I've talked with her about this topic and I guess I'm not satisfied with the answer.

So here it goes..Im now 24 and engaged, he does know about my past.

The problem is it's so hard sometimes to be intimate with him. Sometimes I crave for his attention; then other times, if he tries to touch me a freak out and cannot handle it. I feel bad because I'm sure it's confusing to him because it is so random, but I can't help it. It sometimes happens while we are having sex too and we have to stop. Its been happening a lot lately, and has taken over our sex life. It really makes me feel crazy because it's so overwhelming when it happens my emotions go everywhere from crying uncontrollably to losing my temper. It's been hard to manage because the triggers are so random.

I guess I am wondering if this is also a problem with other people and their significant others? If so did anything help?