Birthday Blues

Are any of you one of those people that have planned or plan your life? like... I always knew what age I'd get married, then have kids. I always knew I wanted 2 kids and have them close in age. I have a daughter and she is 3. she is my world. I recently found out that she was pretty much a miracle because I have found out that I have PCOS and that the reason she is here was because I went on a health/diet/exercise kick to lose weight. well I did just that. I lost 30+ lbs and was feeling great! Then, found out I was pregnant after TTC with my husband for about 6 months. well here i am now, about to be 29 on Tuesday and thought we would have another child by now. We have been trying for months and then found out about the PCOS. Dr. prescribed me to metformin and told me I need to lose weight to have a baby. (i've gained a lot of weight).

I'm just feeling really depressed as I know I need to lose weight to have a baby (it worked for TTC my daughter) I just can't get the motivation I once had. plus knowing now I have PCOS makes me sad AND the fact that I'm about to be 29 and my life plan has not gone according to plan. just venting i suppose.