Making myself paranoid

I stopped taking my bc at the beginning of August. Had a period the 13-17 of August. My SO and I have been ttc for 2 years. i hade to go on bc for 8 months to regulate my periods. I was supposed to start my period the 10th this month and havent. i barely spot when I pee, Ive had little cramps, headaches, some nausea, sensitive breasts, and a lots of gas. I tested 5 days past my missed period but bfn. Maybe i tested to early. Ive read where some women ddnt get there bfp until 2 weeks after there missed period. Ive been making myself paranoid. im probably just getting my hopes up. But ive been too scared to test again cuz another bfn will make me bawl my eyes out! what r ya'lls opinions and/or advice ladies?