I give Up 😟

My fiancé has always been telling me he wants kids he wants a big family .. And that's what made me fall more for him cuz he is a family man .. Well why is it that I feel like I'm alone in this ttc journey .. Its like I have to beg him to have sex with me on my fertile days .. I work from 4-1230pm when I get home from work its about 1 in the morning .. I tell him u want to hanky panky im fertile this week he says hell yeah baby , then he goes to the bathroom for 45 minutes. I I felt stood up felt bad about my self I fell asleep .. He comes 45 min later and trys to wake me up and I snapped I got booty tickled ..was I wrong for snapping at him ? ... I just want a baby so bad and I feel bad enough already cuz I'm having a hard time doing so .. Ughh idk ijust dont know what to do.. 😞😟😟