First OB appointment did not go as expected.

Hello, sooooo a few weeks ago at 19 weeks I had my first OB appointment for this pregnancy. This is our rainbow after a miscarriage is March. All we were worried about was if we would see a heartbeat. Once we heard it and saw it on the ultrasound we breathed a sigh of relief... then the ultrasound tech became very quiet and kept hovering over the chest area. She printed some pics and told us she would be right back. When she reentered I knew it was bad news. She brought the head ob and two interns. He asked to see the video from the ultrasound and she showed him... All while ignoring my questions of what's wrong. Finally he said he has to send me to a specialist because my baby's stomach is sitting beside her heart. I think I've been in shock since that moment a few weeks ago. I haven't seen the specialist yet, they set my appointment close to the end of Oct. Everyone has suggestions of how to cope with this... get a second opinion, journaling, blogging, vlogging, praying, not becoming too connected, fully experience everyday so that I won't regret it later etc. But I'm still just in shock and denial. I don't even know what I expect from this post. Just felt like sharing.