What do I do

A couple nights ago my boyfriend got extremely drunk and..raped me. I’ve been going back and forth in my head I don’t know if I can call it rape because he’s my boyfriend but I REPEATEDLY said no and told him to stop touching me but he didn’t and he was extremely rough. I feel so disgusted and gross, even though he’s my boyfriend I feel like I can’t wash myself enough to get that nasty feel off me. The worst part is he REMEMBERS he says that he “knows I wanted it” and that he’s my boyfriend so “there’s no such thing as m no”

I don’t know what to do...is it rape?