I just had a miscarriage the other night, it was my first pregnancy after trying for over a year. I just have no idea how to handle this, it is by far the worst thing I have ever experienced. Hopefully I can feel better soon because this pain is just too much to handle. Last night I caught a glimpse of my positive pregnancy test i was saving and remembered how incredibly excited I was when i first saw it, and it just crushed me to think that its all gone...and the thought of trying again and getting another one but not being able to enjoy it because it may be gone too...ugh. Its just too much and the the thought of possibly waiting a whole nother year,

getting myself all excited with another positive just to be crushed again...its just too much. i cant stand waiting...