I am close to leaving you.

After this relationship, I think ima just be with girls after. guys suck. especially the guy I am with. I told him what he's doing made me feel, and he said with so much anger "Get the fuck over it" and walked out, coming back inside MY house like it never hurt my feelings, I realized this isn't what i deserve. I can never tell him how I feel, never. because at the end, that's how he talks to me. he just told me he wants to have sex. I told him "Get the fuck over it" and walked away😂. he doesn't realize how bad he's hurting me at this point, mentally. he doesn't realize how I'm planning on leaving him at this point. "Get the fuck over it" I am. in a way he doesn't expect it too be. 6 years of mental abuse, I do deserve better. and this whole time I thought I deserved him. starting to sound like b.s too me. I bought some lingerie, it's my first time, and honestly, ima save that for someone that does deserve to see that on me. he knows I bought it but thinks I haven't received it yet. since its my first time ever buying stuff like that, I want my first experience to be with someone special, someone that treats me like a queen, not when he wants too. so I'm not putting on a show for him, just for myself.😌. I'm opening up my eyes, and I'm becoming stronger. And I will leave. I will. I believe God has better plans for me. thanks for listening yall💖 #whatdoesn'tkillyoumakesyoustronger