Should i tell him? *trigger warning*

to sum it all up, i’ve been at my moms for the past 5 months while my dad finishes a house that was supposed to be done in 2 months at most. the “house” won’t even have any bedrooms that are livable. he’s spent 5 months refurbishing a kitchen, a living room, and a bathroom. he’s been staying with his dad while he’s been doing this stuff. my dad raised me as a single parent.

things at my moms are horrible. she yells and screams and fights wjth her husband all the time and she makes me pay for stuff that she could afford if she actually budgeted her money. my dad can afford to rent a different house while we fix up the other one, but refuses because “this is his dream house”. i’ve been trying to tell him for months how horrible it is here but he never listens.

my mental health is deteriorating. i battled with self-harm and suicidal thoughts/attempts in the past (my dad never knew about this) and i’ve been recovered for the past three years. but since i’ve been here, it’s all come back but 10x worse. when i’m awake, all i think about is wishing i was dead a majority of the time. to keep myself from self-harming, i snap a rubber band on my arm but i’m afraid it won’t always work.

i want to talk to my dad about this stuff, but i don’t know what to tell him. i’m not really the person to talk about my feelings.

should i tell him this? if so, how?