Reaching out to anyone in this position! Somebody please read and help me im boit to give up!

Heres my story...

When i was 19 and with my ex i found out i was pregnant. I was young and he told me he didnt want the baby and to get an abortion. On top of being young and him being an ass i was in pain they told me i might be having an ectopic pregnancy althoigj it was never 100% confirmed. I was overwhelmed and alone until my mom found out thank god she was with me. Also my now husband was a very close friend of mine so he support3d me.

I started dating my husband in 2007 after things fell apart with my ex and i was depressed from the pregnancy. Of course when we started having sex we used a condom and then i went on the pill...we stoppwd using a condom YEARS ago and i stopped my BC two years ago right before we got married. Although we didnt really sit and start trying till a couple months back sometimes i find it strange it never "accidentally" happened. And yes we spoke about what happened if it did and we were prepared! Ive gotten ultrasounds and such done because im irregular a bit and wanted to make sure my parts are working lol but since I found glow theyve been spot on except last month when i was early and this month where im over a week late. Ive been taking tests which i see r negative and then my husband looks later and sees a line. I took one last wednesday after missing my period on monday and same thing a faint line later. Then i waited till this past monday and same thing nevative and later a faint line. So i called the dr enough of thiS BS. she wont take me till next week cuz its too early. I took a test this morning....negative i think theyve all been evaps but ive never seen so many evaps in my life lol. What is going on?!?!?!?!?!?! Im naseous all day and my waters like im suckong on sour candy. Im moody and hungry lol but no sign of AF or a baby! Is something wrong with one of us? Dr says he has a low testosterone count but it doesnt affect reproducing! HELP !!!!