TTC is really stressful

So I took like five tests already and three had vvvvvvfl and the other two were BFN Af was due the 18 and still a no show I don’t know what to do I just really want my BFP already and my son he keeps asking when is god going to bless him with a sister or brother.😞😞 I just want a second baby so bad and I feel like no matter what I do it’s not working. I know I’m still in the race until Af shows her stupid face but I can’t help but scream every time a test doesn’t say the right thing I need some help. I need some encouragement because all I can think about is why the test not saying BFP . Well baby dust to everyone who trying just like me