Depressed rant

I’ve been so depressed that all I can do is cry, which makes me feel worse because my dad use to say don’t cry because you don’t have something to really cry about (meaning there is always someone in the world who has it worse than you do), but I can’t help it I hurt so badly inside that I cry. I also think about death way too much, but I don’t want to kill myself; I just hope for an accident so no one has to deal with me anymore.