comp het 😫😫😫

alright so! im a freshman in high school and a MASSIVE lesbian. literally. im so gay. holy shit. but anyway! im in theater at my school (big surprise) and there’re these two boys who are really outgoing and funny and nice to be around. they always make everyone feel included and they’re super talented. we aren’t really close, but i look up to them a lot. half the time, tho, i wonder if im secretly bi and in denial bc i care about them so much. like the thought of dating them is awful and so is the thought of sex with them but my brain is like “but what if 👀👀” does anybody have any advice dealing with comp het?