I feel like Im LOSING IT!

My son is 3 months old. He is the light of my life. I never knew I could love another person like I love him. Unfortunately we’ve formed some bad habits. He nurses to sleep, wants to keep my nipple in his mouth while sleeping and only wants to nap and sleep in my arms. Some of these habits formed because he has silent reflux and has a milk protein allergy that resulted with blood in his stool. Sometimes he is very uncomfortable when passing bowel movements as well. I just want to be his rock - his comfort for anything and everything so I started holding him when he was sleeping and uncomfortable.

Anyways I’ve had people over a couple of times and I have to go hide out in my bedroom with him when nap time comes so that he can sleep on me. Everyone thinks it’s odd I take his naps with him. I’m quite tired of it too. Sometimes I’m starving and thirsty while he’s sleeping on me for hours. Or I leave guests with my husband for hours while he’s napping.

My mom is staying over to help me and she told me I’m letting myself go and to take care of myself. She sees that my husband and I are not as close and intimate as we used to be and she’s telling me to be careful because that’s how she lost my dad to another woman.

I just feel like a bad mom and wife. Why won’t my son nap on his own? Did I create these bad habits? What should I do?