My story

I’m an 18 year old attending a Christian college, the summer before I started I was with a really bad group of friends. I learned that Peer Pressure’s a bitch. I got made fun of all my life and I got this group who actually seemed to like me, but drinking and smoking became an everyday thing. I was the only female virgin in the group, so my friends convinced me to download tinder, (convinced: as in had me take pictures of myself that showed a little too much clevage so I would “look my best”.) I ended up on 7/17/17 hooking up with my first guy. Then on 7/18/17 I hooked up with the second guy. I thought I had left that part of my life when I moved for school but I met a guy and we ended up becoming a friends with benefits. After about two weeks he dropped me and basically acts like I don’t exist. He now has a girlfriend and she has become one of my best friends he told her I was a “one night stand that got attached” but she knows the whole story and he still doesn’t know she knows. Now I’ve started hooking up with this guy at the local community college and he’s good looking and well the sex is great but I’m Catholic and I feel like it’s hurting my relationship with God. I enjoy sex when it happens but after I go to mass and chapels and I just feel sad. The last time I hooked up with him was Saturday 10/20/17. I also feel like I’m a slut because I’ve had sex with 4 different guys in 4 months