Anniversary/closure/moving forward🤞🏻 🌈

This time last year, I was 9 wks pregnant (or so I thought). Then on 11/7/16, I had a MC. Even though I was devastated, we continued TTC. On my would-be due date of June 5th, I discovered we were pregnant again! That happiness was cut short, since I had a second MC the following week.

Once I recovered and we had our results from blood testing/HSG test (everything is normal & no answers for MC's) we began TTC again.

I thought for sure this would be our month again, but yesterday AF came a day early 👎🏻. We had sex 6 outta 7 days of my fertile week, come on! 😭

Anyway, with the anniversary of my 1st MC coming up, my husband and I am planning to have a mini memorial for our lost pregnancies. Just us two, something simple. We're thinking of writing letters and sending them off with a balloon.

I'm hoping this will bring closure for our losses, and provide a sense of "new beginnings" or something like that. No matter what I do, I can't seem to get over my grief and disappointment. Last night, my husband took me out on a date night to cheer me up (since I got my period). Even though we had a wonderful time (and discussed our hopeful future) I woke up sobbing this morning.

In addition to having a memorial, I'm thinking of talking to my doctor about going on anti-depressants. As long as there's a brand that's safe for TTC, I want to give it a try.

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Thank you for reading my (long) post. And if you had a memorial for your MC (or experience w/ meds while TTC), please comment and tell me about it! Good luck to everyone waiting on their 🌈.