Feeling heartbroken

Ugh after so long of TTC you'd think I'm use to getting bfn after bfn after bfn! Until last month when I got that BFP I though I'd never see. It ends in a chemical pregnancy. Awesome I thought to my self.

Pulling myself together I think to myself well I will for sure get that BFP in October! Well 12dpo nothing. Bfn after bfn. AF due oct 31st and I've been spotting.

I thought this was my month. I read many women get pregnant the next month. I have been nauseated since 1dpo. To the point I'm gagging for 30 mins plus. Running to the bathroom almost throwing up. Cramping a week before AF, acne, exhaustion, sore boobs but not like when I pms this time it's like flares of sore boob not so painful I can't wear a bra.

And yet bfn bfn bfn 😩 I know i still have 2 days until AF but with this spotting I know AF is on her way...

Just another month of me trying so hard to not get my hopes up, a month of my obsessing, and another month of driving myself insane.

Rant over I just needed to get it out that's for sure!