Its Complicated

Today I found out from my Mother that my sister is pregnant. This brings up an array of different emotions for me. Of course I'm happy and excited for her, after all she is my sister and we are only 2 years apart in age. She had no problem getting pregnant with this pregnancy and is already a mother to my sassy 11 yr old niece.

Where it's complicated for me is that I'm also feeling pretty envious of her, and it's been hard to keep the green eyed monster away.

I'm 2 years older than my sister and I've never been pregnant. Unlike her, I've been TTC for 19 months now. I've been seeing a naturopath to improve my overall health, acupuncture for fertility, I'm taking supplements, I'm tracking my CM, basal body temp, using OPKs, making sure we do the deed during the right window (even though sometimes I don't feel in the mood) and still NOTHING!!!!

And where it really gets complicated is that my sister didn't even want to tell me herself about her news. Gah.

Like I said it's complicated.

Sorry for the long post, just really needed to vent!!!!