Its going down hill

Ive been married to my husband for 3 years almost and have been together 8 years we have been having problems on and off there are days i cant stand him we have 2 kids together he works night shifts so its real hard on me i watch them day and night i would like some help from him but either hes asleep or on his phone!!! I feel like a single mother i dont know if i love him or not i sometimes hope i can find someone better but i would never cheat i dont have it in me!! I just feel like lonley that i cant talk to him that everything is on me!!

Wat advice do u give me?