Social anxiety

Im 19 and I’ve been like “the quiet girl “ all my life :/

I honestly hate that I have social anxiety because I literally have no friends. I have acquaintances but suck at starting convos/talking. I party here and there and it’s fun because I drink but I really don’t have any real friends. I think to myself like when I get married who’s gonna be my bridesmaids 😫 lol. I honestly hope one day this goes away.