changing..

I have learned to fake smiles and happiness. To hide my true feelings. That it's okay to talk down on myself.i have learned everything bad about me. I have learned I have a huge nose, i have learned I'm fat, that I'm an idiot, that being me is a mistake. I have learned to depend on others. That someone else's attention means that I'm loved.

But today, I will begin to unlearn all that and i will teach myself to love me. to love my nose, to love my belly. To make a difference in my body so I don't feel tired, sad, disgusting. I will learn that my happiness does not depend on having a certain person's attention. I am worth my own happiness and my own love. I'm done crying because of who I am and i will start smiling at the mirror because of who I see. I'm ready for the change... My heart is ready to be healed...