In love with two people 🤦🏽‍♀️

So.. I have a first love from 2 years ago. We fw eachother on and off. He doesn’t want a relationship with anybody rn .. including me, but we both still have feelings for eachother if that makes sense. We can’t leave eachother alone. Recently I met a GIRL in the summer and we started to date in August.. I was confused cause I usually don’t like girls .. but I like her. Anyways .. my first love kept hurting me and I fell in love with this girl, so I started to date her. The girl I’m dating has cheated on me before and is lowkey a player. But plot twist.. I’m also getting dick from my first love. She knows about the 2 times I fucked him .. but I recently just fucked him yesterday. Idk what to do because I’m obviously in love with my FL but then I love my gf too.. buuuuut she doesn’t have a dick but idk I’m just confused. If I leave her that’s kinda stupid cause my first love doesn’t want to date .. so ig we’d just be fuck buddies. Also I don’t really trust my gf with other girls ..