Not as excited...??

B💑👪

Is it bad that I am not as excited about being pregnant? I almost cannot allow myself to feel happy or excited. I dont want to get my hopes up. I lost what wouldve been our second child in March at 12 weeks. It was the absolute worst thing I have been through. I dont want to go through that ever again. I am scared to be happy and excited. It doesnt feel real yet either.